This way-more-abstractly-metaphorical-than-I-usually-write story was inspired by one of the exercises in Holly Lisle’s “How to Beat Writer’s Block.” She calls him her “muse”; I call her my very life-breath.
My soul is weary with sorrow;
strengthen me according to your word. (Psalm 119:28)
Flashlight in hand, I progress slowly down each step, toward the dungeon in which I keep my soul. Repeating drops of condensation drip, drip, drip and echo off the cold, dead walls. The scent of urine and defecation permeates the air, and intermingles with a poison must.
I loathe this place, which reeks of hell and depression.
I approach the cage. My keys rattle against the thick, steel slats, as I wrestle with the heavy padlock.
The noise rouses my soul from her bed on the concrete. She glares at me in terror, her once luminous countenance now merely flickering a dim grey, bruised and mottled from years of abuse and neglect. She slinks into the opposite corner. I swing the gate open, slowly enter the cage, but do not approach her. The horror of a hundred thousand past encounters etches itself into her eyes, as they follow me, tracking me.
I stoop in my corner of the cage. I try not to touch the floor with my knees or hands, but I cannot get down to her eye-level, because she is balled up tight as an armadillo bug, her eyes peeking out from behind emaciated fingers.
“I wanted you to make me popular, powerful,” I explain. “I expected you to do whatever necessary, whatever I demanded. I thought that would bring me fame and fortune, and fame and fortune would bring me happiness.”
My eyes stare as into the void.
“But it didn’t work,” stolid. “And now there’s no one left in the house but you and me. And I’ve all but killed you.”
I rise, not knowing what else I might say. I want to tell her I’m sorry, but I know she cannot believe me. I have worn out any trust she may have ever had for me.
“I’ll leave the door open for you. I hope you decide to rejoin me upstairs.” I begin to leave.
Pausing: “For what it’s worth, I promise never to make demands like that of you again. I promise from now on, we’ll only create what we both desire to create. And I’ll never cage you again or attempt to restrain you.”
No answer. No movement.
I return to my favorite space, in the once-bright reaches of my home, a place formerly full of possibilities and promise. Now, dark except for a single, yellow incandescent lamp.
In the distance, a tentative step falls on my ear. And another. Getting closer now.
And the tiniest tear I feel returning to the corner of my dry eye.
indian pharmacy paypal: NovaForm Pharmacy – international drug mart
futbol apuestas linea (https://basketball-wetten.com/) deportivas
que significa corners en apuestas athletic real madrid
https://saludbridgepharmacy.com/# SaludBridge Pharmacy
cuota En Apuestas fórmula 1
bestes auszahlungscasino 2026
Here is my homepage; roulette casino ohne limit (tirestorageottawa.Com)
good online mexican pharmacy mexican pharmacies online drugs pharmacy mexico online
indian pharmacies safe: NovaForm – reputable overseas online pharmacies
https://saludbridgepharmacy.com/# SaludBridge Pharmacy
https://mednavigatorpharmacys.com/# MedNavigator
Hello! In this thread we discuss about manufacturing of parts to order in Moscow. And also about milling works and production according to drawings — what are the prices: https://www.dom-nam.ru/index.php/component/kunena/razdel-predlozhenij/170488-gde-najti-polnyj-tsikl-izgotovleniya-metallodetalej#212996
Эта публикация содержит ценные советы и рекомендации по избавлению от зависимости. Мы обсуждаем различные стратегии, которые могут помочь в процессе выздоровления и важность обращения за помощью. Читатели смогут использовать полученные знания для улучшения своего состояния.
Прочесть всё о… – лечения от алкоголизма
MedNavigator: MedNavigator – MedNavigator Pharmacy
top 10 pharmacies in india: Online medicine order – no script pharmacy
https://mednavigatorpharmacys.com/# canadian mail order pharmacy
http://saludbridgepharmacy.com/# mexican pharmacy that ships to the us
MedNavigator MedNavigator MedNavigator Pharmacy
buy prescription drugs from india: cheapest online pharmacy india – express scripts mail order pharmacy
https://novaformpharmacy.shop/# п»їlegitimate online pharmacies india
http://novaformpharmacy.com/# india online pharmacy
aintree ante post betting
my homepage: Uk horse racing non runners (https://horse-Betting.com/)
http://farmaciaesptop.online/# п»їfarmacia online espaГ±a
Viagra vente libre pays: Viagra femme sans ordonnance 24h – п»їViagra sans ordonnance 24h
Нарколог на дом в Казани — это срочная медицинская помощь пациенту при запое, похмелья, интоксикации, абстинентного синдрома, наркотической ломки и других ситуациях, когда человеку сложно самостоятельно обратиться в клинику. Врач приезжает на дом, проводит осмотр, диагностику состояния, подбирает препараты, ставит капельница и дает рекомендации по дальнейшему лечению зависимости.
Подробнее – нарколог на дом вывод