This way-more-abstractly-metaphorical-than-I-usually-write story was inspired by one of the exercises in Holly Lisle’s “How to Beat Writer’s Block.” She calls him her “muse”; I call her my very life-breath.
My soul is weary with sorrow;
strengthen me according to your word. (Psalm 119:28)
Flashlight in hand, I progress slowly down each step, toward the dungeon in which I keep my soul. Repeating drops of condensation drip, drip, drip and echo off the cold, dead walls. The scent of urine and defecation permeates the air, and intermingles with a poison must.
I loathe this place, which reeks of hell and depression.
I approach the cage. My keys rattle against the thick, steel slats, as I wrestle with the heavy padlock.
The noise rouses my soul from her bed on the concrete. She glares at me in terror, her once luminous countenance now merely flickering a dim grey, bruised and mottled from years of abuse and neglect. She slinks into the opposite corner. I swing the gate open, slowly enter the cage, but do not approach her. The horror of a hundred thousand past encounters etches itself into her eyes, as they follow me, tracking me.
I stoop in my corner of the cage. I try not to touch the floor with my knees or hands, but I cannot get down to her eye-level, because she is balled up tight as an armadillo bug, her eyes peeking out from behind emaciated fingers.
“I wanted you to make me popular, powerful,” I explain. “I expected you to do whatever necessary, whatever I demanded. I thought that would bring me fame and fortune, and fame and fortune would bring me happiness.”
My eyes stare as into the void.
“But it didn’t work,” stolid. “And now there’s no one left in the house but you and me. And I’ve all but killed you.”
I rise, not knowing what else I might say. I want to tell her I’m sorry, but I know she cannot believe me. I have worn out any trust she may have ever had for me.
“I’ll leave the door open for you. I hope you decide to rejoin me upstairs.” I begin to leave.
Pausing: “For what it’s worth, I promise never to make demands like that of you again. I promise from now on, we’ll only create what we both desire to create. And I’ll never cage you again or attempt to restrain you.”
No answer. No movement.
I return to my favorite space, in the once-bright reaches of my home, a place formerly full of possibilities and promise. Now, dark except for a single, yellow incandescent lamp.
In the distance, a tentative step falls on my ear. And another. Getting closer now.
And the tiniest tear I feel returning to the corner of my dry eye.
https://vetfreemeds.com/# dog medicine
https://mymexicanpharmacy.shop/# My Mexican Pharmacy
This piece of writing is truly a good one it assists new the web visitors, who are wishing in favor of blogging.
esport wetten strategie
Also visit my site; basketball-wetten.com
vet pharmacy: online vet pharmacy – pet meds online
kombiwette spiel abgebrochen
Feel free to surf to my blog post … WettbüRo us wahl
gratis tipps sportwetten
Here is my web site … papst Wettquoten
https://mymexicanpharmacy.shop/# My Mexican Pharmacy
https://vetfreemeds.com/# п»їdog medication online
QQ88 là không gian giải trí trực tuyến được tối ưu trải nghiệm, nơi tốc độ, sự ổn định và tính tiện lợi được đặt lên hàng đầu.
узнать больше водка бет
italien deutschland wetten
Visit my site … beste bitcoin-wallet für sportwetten
pet med: vet pharmacy online – pet meds for dogs
Hi! This is my first visit to your blog! We are a collection of volunteers and starting a new project in a community in the same niche. Your blog provided us beneficial information to work on. You have done a extraordinary job!
online vet pharmacy pet rx pet rx
dog medicine: pet prescriptions online – dog medicine
каталог vodka casino
https://mymexicanpharmacy.shop/# My Mexican Pharmacy
https://certicanpharmacy.shop/# CertiCanPharmacy
dog medicine: online pet pharmacy – best pet rx
I was curious if you ever thought of changing the page layout of your blog? Its very well written; I love what youve got to say. But maybe you could a little more in the way of content so people could connect with it better. Youve got an awful lot of text for only having 1 or two pictures. Maybe you could space it out better?
My Mexican Pharmacy: My Mexican Pharmacy – My Mexican Pharmacy
https://certicanpharmacy.shop/# CertiCanPharmacy
ohne einzahlung wetten
Here is my web blog – seriöse Sportwetten anbieter
https://vetfreemeds.shop/# canada pet meds
My Mexican Pharmacy: My Mexican Pharmacy – online pharmacy mexico
wettanbieter ohne oasis
Feel free to surf to my web-site … Sportwetten Tipps Facebook
best pet rx VetFree Meds pet pharmacy
https://certicanpharmacy.shop/# CertiCanPharmacy
http://certicanpharmacy.com/# canadianpharmacy com
Hi there to every one, it’s in fact a good for me to pay a quick visit this web page, it includes valuable Information.
pet drugs online: dog medicine – discount pet meds
CertiCanPharmacy: CertiCanPharmacy – pharmacy wholesalers canada
https://vetfreemeds.shop/# pet pharmacy online
http://mymexicanpharmacy.com/# pharmacy online
online pet pharmacy: pet meds official website – best pet rx
Magnificent items from you, man. I have understand your stuff prior to and you are simply too magnificent. I really like what you have received right here, really like what you’re saying and the way through which you say it. You make it entertaining and you continue to care for to stay it smart. I can’t wait to learn far more from you. This is really a terrific website.
My Mexican Pharmacy My Mexican Pharmacy mexico online pharmacy
https://vetfreemeds.shop/# pet med
https://certicanpharmacy.com/# CertiCanPharmacy
My Mexican Pharmacy: mexico pharmacy online – My Mexican Pharmacy
dog medicine: п»їdog medication online – online pet pharmacy
wetten ergebnisse
Feel free to surf to my website; Sportwetten app schweiz
Piece of writing writing is also a fun, if you know then you can write otherwise it is difficult to write.
https://mymexicanpharmacy.com/# My Mexican Pharmacy
trusted canadian pharmacy: CertiCanPharmacy – CertiCanPharmacy
https://vetfreemeds.com/# pet pharmacy online
besten sportwetten bonus
Also visit my web blog: Platz wette pferderennen
dog medicine VetFree Meds pet prescriptions online
canadian pharmacy mall: canadian pharmacy meds – northern pharmacy canada